im so tired of school, i hate it. every day i have to force myself to talk to ppl i dont even like to not be a loner. i have to force myself to focus. back then it came so naturally. i feel so stressed rn and my grades are the only thing that genuinely make me feel accomplished. my grades are getting bad and i feel like a failure. ik i could do sm more, why dont i? my percent avg is 93%. ik sum of yall are gonna be like "fuck u, show-off." but u dont understand, my grades are the only shit that defines me. without my grades im nothing. im just an ugly, boring, poor ass and i hate that. i wish i wasnt born poor so i wouldnt have to care abt my grades and i could focus on my art. i love drawing but thats not even a choice for me. going to art skl is like a gamble. theres so many ppl going to art skl, its hard to compete. im not even THAT good at it. guess im js stuck here forcing myself to feel passionate for shit i will never care abt