Rant #30033

i dont think i actlly want to die yk? i jsut really like the feeling of nearly dying like i fantasise of a shcool shooting and im the only one shot down or in the middle of class ill imagine being shot and my head falling to the desk and everyone screaming its selfish to want other people being horriefied at my ded body but i cant stop i like standing on bridges and lookign down not cause i wanna jump or shat i jsut like the feelling