Everything feels so wrong with me i used to be so hypersexual everything I did was sexual to get validation I would use my body because otherwise I feel worthless now i keep trying and trying but I get no pleasure from it I dont want it to begin with but I need it or I feel like a failure my body feels wrong I have a boyfriend who expects a sexual me soon when I see him again but all i want to do is dissappear because I dont enjoy it all did I ever like it I dont know but its been my way of keeping myself stable enough to survive for so long suddenly being unable to even pretend feels so wrong
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