I didn’t get into the uni I wanted cus I didn’t get the grade in one subject, so now I’m resitting them for next year, initially it felt awful and now it feels weird, I don’t know how I feel about anything anymore, I don’t eat I don’t sleep or drink I just try to get what I need to do done in order to get in again, I don’t really feel bad about it or anything which is weird cus I used to be a lot more muscular and into fitness and now I’m just this. most of my friends have gone now so I’m mostly to myself, I am really lonely that’s one thing I know I feel or at least I was, but I guess knowing that it’s not going to chsnge for a while I’ve kinda just ignored it. I see so much potential in myself and sometimes I see the good I can do in my art and my mind but I get this impulse when I try just to give up and commit like I was going to if I did end up not getting into that uni, but I’m still here and i don’t know how to feel anymore