I'm so tired of my OCD. I feel trapped by it. I know these "rules" and compulsions are not logical. Nobody is there judging me for how many time it took me to do something or what day I began something. This is so silly and dumb. But it invade me like it is important. There is a secret way to sort things that everyone knows but me and I will be judged for not following the secret rule. I want to just enjoy my hobbies without stressing about damaging my books or be perfectly optimized on a video game. I wish I could be freed from it.