You know what, I wanna do it. I wanna do it now. There's nothing to lose anymore. I turned into the one person I swore not to be. What if I just did it right now? I can't handle it anymore. I wish I had the tools to do it. I don't know how to do it so I can't do it. I want to do it so fking badly. LET ME FKN KMS. WHY CANT I JUST DO IT RN. please... i need help... why wont anyone help me... my arm is already so scratched up rn... help... **er