sensitive topic!! idk wth this is but I got this annoying that that when I do self harm (which unforts I do, and I’m someone who’s kinda afraid of pain? long story), so I make my scars like.. lightly like I don’t make it bleed but u see the indent and it’s a bit red, and whenever it fades I get this weird dumb feeling thst I did it for nothing and I kinda want it to show but don’t? I always hide my emotions cuz everyone sees me as this jolly fun person, so like I want someone to comment on it but also not ykkk so ik it’s rlly bad but idk I feel like weird when it doesn’t even scar, like I did it for nothing, and im not trynna be attention seeking but also I am but im not? god it’s so disgusting I hate myself
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