I am so fucking done with school because of the PTSD that I've had a few years ago with a stupid college neighbor of mine who was on the opposite side of the spectrum as me, who was really in my face and sexually assaulted me and forced me to be someone I'm not, which led up to me almost killing him, taking his life, and threatening his family, which I still have a lot of trauma about. Now that I'm back in university, those thoughts are starting to come back. I already feel like starving myself to death so that the pain can go away. Not only that, it's starting to affect my school life and my personal life too and it's really affecting me hard. So you know what? I'm done; I am done trying to be nice and gentle to others while letting this pain get worse. It's time to take off the fake personality and reveal to others who I truly am—raw, unfiltered, and honest, while also being truthful. No more hiding, no more fear, no more pretending. It's time for the real me to come out.