I am a creative person who values being busy, but right now my life is at a standstill. I just graduated college. I have autism and ADHD. And really bad anxiety. I just had to get a root canal because of how poorly I take care of my teeth. I’m starting to get frustrated with this. I can’t human right. I forget my meds that I literally take every day. I forget to drink fucking water. I forget to brush my teeth. And I wish I had a job. I wish I had something to fucking do, but I CAN’T. I can’t bring myself to work because of how bad my autism and adhd is. It’s not that I can’t work, I’ve worked before, I just… everything sucks, and I hate waiting, and I’m feeling so frustrated. I just… I’m sitting at my desk all day, playing video games to ease my mind. I’ve tried applying to every fucking job in my hometown, nothing. Nada. I hate it. I want to crawl out of my skin. I hate waiting. I hate this.