im going through a hard time right now this year has been the worse year of my life and I people have been telling me im to young to be experiencing these emotion (lets just say im between 10-15) and it just hurts me and my mom got in a argument which resulted in her smashing a glass cup and telling me she's going to kill herself because of me I started self harming they found out I've been doing it they don't trust me anymore I can't even talk to my friends without her instigating me I was 3 months clean then my mom just started being worse and I relapsed and it just hurt so much and my ex she groaped me I broke up with her (wlw) and I still see myself falling for her and to be honest we kinda broke up on good terms but I still always get this flutter in my chest when I see her and god there's this girl named Aliyah and I get this exact same feeling but bigger but recently all of my grade got thee schedules changed and now we don't have any classes together and im moving soon