I hate going to school and I cry myself to sleep over it and I over think because I'm gay and I don't want anyone knowing but I'm kinda obvious and all my friends are girls and I don't want to be bullied or beaten because of it and it's really fucking up my mental health and I just really need help. And I struggle on being myself at school and just overall and I really am scarred from the bullying that I had to endure at EVMS because I was gay and I want people to accept me I feel like a burden. It's hard for me to make friends because even though it's aching me to talk to a person my social anxiety stops me and I always wait for someone to talk to me first, but I have gotten used to being alone and I want to stay alone but I want people to talk to, to play with, to hangout with and just someone that accepts me for who I am and won't judge me for being me.