I'm not actually friends with anyone. I hang out with a lot of people and get along well with almost everyone, but I don't have anyone who knows me. I don't have anyone I hang out with all the time and who comforts me when I'm down and who I know the whole life of. Part of this is my fault, I never take relationships to the next level because I don't know how! Am I meant to hang out? What if they say no? What if they don't have a fun time? Am I meant to open up? I don't know how to do that! I just joke with people, I don't know how to have a serious conversation! I'm genuinely worried I'm gonna die with no one really knowing me at all just because I'm too scared to figure out how to let them get to know me