i’m actually so anxious about school and every little thing that i have to do it makes me want to throw up. if i’m not academically perfect, it feels like i’m going to disappoint everyone around me and im also going to be disappointed because i put in so much effort into something that i couldn’t even do right. i don’t wanna go anymore, i just wanna stay home. i know i need to go to achieve basically anything in life but the system is so awful it feels basically like hell, maybe hell might even be softer than it. i even get beat up from my classmates for no apparent reason except that they think it’s funny. it actually hurts and i can’t even tell anyone about it because im scared they wont take me seriously since it’s already happened before in the past.