Love is a strange endeavour. i dont get it? ive come out as pansexual to myself, i like peeps regardless of their gender. i know theres an ache within me that screams, i can never settle for someone. i cant be chained to anyone, it suffocates me. why does hold my hand hold through sweat, tears and desperation. is space a bad thing to want, is my growth not valid. why have i been criminalized when ive only ever tried for me. i try so hard to love myself, and end up hurting someone i love. but then i love someone else, and choke under them again blaming myself. i want space, i always need time but the fact that i CANT have that when in love, hurts. goodness, please respond if u have any insights. i feel alone and lost, unable to process any of my constant romantic feelings. thanks