Basically, I feel crazy. I'm in no condition where i could see a therapist of any sorts. I feel like I have multiple personalities, or something equivalent. Not DID. Due to the fact I don't recall any blackouts or big absence of memories. I feel like im faking this. Constantly. Started at 14 suddenly, if it happened before I can't recall. I'm 19 now. I feel like its fake, due to the fact they feel like personas. There's 15, I know age, name, what they look like, preferences, hobbies, body issues, etc. At 12 I felt like I was trans. I hated being called female and my dead name, hated woman's clothes. Still do, but if a female personality is out. They're feminine. Which I wouldn't dare to do. Some like tomato's, while others can't even stand the texture of them. The way I switch feels fake. In my head someone will say "so and so wants out." I stare off into space for a few seconds to minutes then theyre out. I just feel crazy at this point. Does this sound fake? I feel like it does.