Ive been trying to give my friends and family signs that im not okay, but none of them noticed, one friend thinks im doing better, the other 2 friends barely even talk to me and i always feel like they dont even care about me. My family just calls me lazy cause i barely get out of bed anymore. im trying my best, i just lost my grandma to cancer and one of the 2 friends who barely talks to me, only talks to me when she needs to vent or something about cancer, I dont know what to do, my suicidal thoughts are getting worse again, and everyday something triggers me, whether its being yelled at for being lazy or someone making jokes about cancer, I want to die, ive been self harming again and NO ONE cares. my 2 friends that i see everyday saw the cuts and said NOTHING, didnt ask if i was okay, didnt even ask if i needed to talk. I just want to die. I cant do this shit anymore, im writing the letters and getting what i need, goodbye yall, thanks for always being here to let me vent