I think i have a crush on one of my childhood best friends. We've know each other pretty much our entire lives, and the platonic and romantic feelings turned into one big confusing soup and I'm just sitting here losing my freakin mind. Because I'm so scared he doesn't like me back so I don't want to drop hints but at the same time I do? But what if he does like me back? Then what do I do? If I screw it up, then that's a whole lifetimes worth of easy, secure, happy friendship down the drain. I'm feeling really hurt rn bc he insulted my intelligence and accused me of being incredibly dirty minded over something super stupid. And he also cussed at my brother who was trying to talk to him about the same thing. So I cried in my bathroom because who says that to someone? I was pointing out the lyrics in a song that were super sexual for being in a kids movie, and he somehow completely ignored the facts and decided I was a sex obsessed idiot and I just...don't know what to do or how to feel