all my friendships are slowly dying. I don't know why, but i've lost 2 friends in about a month. both of my girl bsfs... the first one flat out treated me like shit and used me so badly to the point I had to block her for my own mental health that's growing worse and the second straight up lashed out at me over an opinion on a FORTNITE SKIN, CALLED ME A HOE, and left a groupchat with my other friends. I actually apologized over this stupid shit, and she's ghosting me. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong whatsoever.. and i don't wanna bother my other friends that are already kind of distant with me other than one I've been talking to about ts. I don't want to vent anyone because I hate feeling weak or like I'm forcing them to 'help me', but maybe this is just my canon event and I'm meant to be alone. but I'm kinda crumbling because I already have shit i deal with in my own personal life everyday, but maybe it's just my fault. I hate myself so much, I don't blame them for hating me.