Entitled, whiny, disrespectful, numb, anxiety-filled, someone who's defined by the phrase "you don't deserve anything in life because you're wrong". Sometimes I just want to feel something, but I can't bring myself to do anything about it. I lose myself in digital worlds. I analyze and watch TV shows because I like their world more than mine. I dream about their world. I think about my favorite shows more than my problems because it hurts too much. I stay up until 3 am and get 2 or 3 hours of sleep. I fail tests, and I'm scared I'm not going to get into the college I want. And if I don't, I don't know if I can keep living like this. I already can't, but I can't stop it. Sometimes I wish I wasn't born, and sometimes I wish I could just be happier. More content. But no...my stupid brain is never satiated. I can get out of my head. I speak up and my hands start shaking with anxiety. I can't be myself. But hopefully this pain will end. I guess I'll just be numb till then...