bit of a content / trigger warning since im going to talk about sexual assault etc so uh, warningw arning im in pain down there so much and i feel like i can never talk about it i mean liek obviously a doctor amd stuff but like yk i was sexually abused when i was like super little and ive had so many shitty complications i feel like actually discarded trash dude i logically know why i have these awful symptoms (nerve damage, previous infections etc.) its just what happens with rape but i just dont think anyone understands how broken i feel as a person because of it like idfk im not asexual (nothing wrong with asexuals, shoutout) but i do really want intimacy and i feel so useless because everytime im just in excruciating pain and its just so stupid and im tired of random flare ups of pain in my daily life sitting still hurts and its been literally over a decade since that stuff this is so fucking stuoid i just want a normal body dude