Ptsd. It sucks so bad i can barely handle it anymore, i cant sleep without noise or somethign to distract my mind. It keeps popping into my head when i dont want it to, it sucks it really does. I wish i just didnt view the video, i wish i clicked off before i saw what happened. I wish i didnt view anymore videos. Its all my fault, its my fault and i have no right to feel so guilty or horrible because i did this to myself. I wish i could just go back and break my phone. I just want it all to be over