my day to day life is filled with paranoia; im 16 and i feel like im going through a midlife crisis every day. i am petrified of growing old and death and infinite nothingness for eternity; i envy those who can use religion to hope for a life after death. i yearn for something like reincarnation but i have a deep feeling it isn't real - we die and then it's nothing and then yeah. idk i dont really have friends to talk about this with so ill go here again, this makes me feel a little better sometimes