I genuinely hate my life. My parents arent fucking married, but i dont care about that. My mom has full custody and its A LIVING FUCKING HELL IN HERE! She doesnt fucking acknowledge my mental health and says i have everything. She says im being overdramatic. She checked my grades today and she got mad. I hate myself. I dont want to eat anymore. Im literally fucking overweight. IM 160 POUNDS AND I CANT! MY MOM SAYS IM CLOSE TO BEING HER WEIGHT. I want to die. I want hannah. I want her here. I want alina... i dont want to anything at all. Im already struggling. I dont want to talk to my friends. IM STUDYING FUCKING PSYCHOLOGY BY MYSELF SO I COULD HELP MY FRIENDS BUT I CANT HELP MYSELF! IM FUCKING DROWNING! Im not ready for high school. Im not ready to live. I hate myself, i hate everyone. I have these compulsive thoughts to wash my hands everytime i pass a sink and i cant stop for some reason. Everytime i eat, the thoughts tell me to throw up and they repeat until i do.