Today was one of those days that really felt like everyone around me was against me and nobody gave af what I was feeling or going through. But I'm usually the one who worries about everything and everybody else. I get told "it's what you make it". There's some thing's out of my control like how others act. If people wouldn't be such assholes in my family and neighbor wise too I probably would've half have felt the way I did. Why is it those who are genuinely caring are shit on so much? It's really exhausting. Energy and joy killers. I think everyone around me is mentally ill tbh. Why is everybody so on edge all the time and bitter angry sour salty. That gets REALLY OLD LIVING AND BEING AROUND PEOPLE LIKE THAT. AND HAVING neighbors who are like that. I don't need therapy I need out of this toxic environment. The resentment bitterness here feels like you could cut it with a knife. This wasn't the life I imagined growing up in.