I’m so tired of feeling like I don’t belong somewhere when all I’m trying to do is help and be involved. I’m a representative for my college’s Block and Bridle club, and honestly, the whole experience has been exhausting. I’m trying to learn how things work, figure out what needs to be done, and contribute, but there’s barely any organization or clear communication. Nobody gives you a consistent list of responsibilities or tells you what’s coming up. Most of the time, I don’t even know something needs to be done until someone reaches out. Then, when something doesn’t get done the way people expect, suddenly it’s my responsibility to do better. And I can acknowledge that I need to take more initiative. I’m not pretending I’m perfect or that I have nothing to improve. But how am I supposed to improve when expectations aren’t clear and I feel like I’m being judged instead of taught? Recently, I was helping at an event, literally just trying to keep a calf moving, when one of the leader