What's more my fam act like I'm not even "allowed" to get angry. Make that make sense. My fam are so moody and unstable. Look if somebody woke you up every fuckin morning seemingly on purpose and their fuckin other one who lives up there goes thump thump thump like a horse on a jogging track you'd be fuckin pissed too. I hear your old fuckin resentments for hours sometimes yet when I've had a little more than I can handle I get invalidated and ignored. I have a right to feel how I do because seemingly all I get is shit on. Other fam is like stop you're scaring the dog. I know it's not the dogs fault it's my fam and these ghetto son of a bitchin neighbors with 0 respect we have. I even took fam to get their meds today they invalidate me and mock me in the car. If I'm hated that much just go ahead and kill me ok. Ive caught the railroad crossbars going down twice I could have stopped on the m the thought did enter my mind. Thanks fam you caused me to sh today good job. Who needs enemies