i can't anymore. i'm so tired. i feel so helpless, stupid, a deadweight, and useless. i wanted to work as much as i wanted to continue my studies. But, it's so hard to keep up with both. i'm failing my classes. i can't concentrate at work. i'm fucking can't do anything right. i can't keep asking for my mother's help because her work is already strenuous on her body. i don't even want her to work. but she's still doing it just to support us. but me? i've just become a deadweight who can't do anything right. i had an exam this morning but i wasn't able to review bc of work. while taking it, i wasn't able to concentrate bc i haven't slept for the past week. i've only been getting 2 hrs of sleep, but my mind needs to keep thinking; for work and for studies. i can't catch a break 😭😭😭😭