i moved back to my hometown. in the same house i lived in until i went to college. the moment i moved back all i can think of is them. we havent talked in two years even then the conversation wasnt substantial, last time we actually had a full length conversation was seven years ago. but here i am sitting and wondering if they ever think of me. whether they think about all the whispers and promises that we made to each other. we both moved on, we went to different partners, different jobs, we dont even look the same (maybe i do still actually) but now what. i cant live my life in the past. what does my subconscious want from me. i think if i reached out to them right now it wouldnt be healthy for either of us, so why does part of me still open my phone and stare at their contact name