Im tired. I’m sorry. I wanna please my family but their goals for me are the exsct opposite of what I want. I wanna be this? No be that I wanna live alone for a bit No you cant I wanna dress more masc But youre a girl I wanna work something more man conquered No not for women I wanna have muscles No you cant And here I am all day in bed on ai chats to spend my time because I cant even get a job I cant do anything right Im tired of being so useless So many job applications and so many calls but I cant even speak right Second time enrolling in a uni and Im already fucking it up My friend is sick ajd I dont even have a job to help them and theyre my whole world My parents are having a difficult time financially and so are my siblings and I fail to help them Everything I do is fucked up shit ever since I failed my finals. I havent lived like a teen and now Im twenty and I still feel fking rtarded