My identity and who I am are unacceptable to the people i love most. My gf, she will never accept my transfers or my oddities. I love her. I know part of her loves me. But in the moments where I become myself more and share parts of me, she gets uncomfortable and this is killing me on the inside. Its over. But I dont want it to be. But I know she will not love me. Not the way I am. Not who I will be. In fact, I do not think anyone will. My mother hates speaking with me and I hate speaking with her, but we yearn for each other. I want my mom. But she's so aggressive with me and im so sensitive and I hate it. I hate it. After our interactions I only feel these pits of despair, I become so miserable. I am miserable. I must be a miserable person. A weak individual, sensitive and wrong in every way. Where everyone else can see something wrong within me. I know I cant appease everyone in my life but I want ONE person who can at least truly understand me. Love me. Im alone w/ ppl in my life.