today, there it is again. yes i know. tamad ako. pero i think.. burnout na ba ito?? naburnout na ako agad without even having a moment to shine? or is that the reason na naburnout ako -- dahil i kept trying but never shined. (?) eto nanaman. criticisms kept coming. baka perspective ko lang to and maybe the lack of confidence pero why do i always feel bad??? what can I do to make myself feel more okay, like rise above this feeling. it's eating me alive and i feel like im always looking for a way out. i know it should not be like this.