I wanna die. I wanna stop living and I wanna disappear. but at the same time, I wanna be seen. I wanna be heard. I'm so far from perfect, but I'm not mentally unstable. I'm neutral on all levels where I wanna feel at least something. God I hate it. I went ham on my leg last night, and I'm such an attention whore and I'm gonna tell my mom. its currently 6:48, and I'm telling her around 7:15-30ish. I'm so fucking empty and scared and I'm just so done with everything. I don't wanna die but I don't wanna be here. I have so much to accomplish, yet I have barely enough motivation to go to school. I haven't brushed my teeth in a week and I feel like a slob and I'm so tired of this life. I wanna start a fresh life so so so bad. I know I'll never be accepted.