I fell in love with a girl a long time ago. We married and I deployed. I came back and started my dream job. I love everything about her body. She’s quiet and I’m not. She keeps things in but I let things out. WE are polar opposites but we’ve made a life for two decades. We have beautiful, healthy, intelligent children. She has not self initiated hugs or kisses but I have. I feel like the slave and Daddy Warbucks but not appreciated with emotions or affection. I sleep in a separate room, she says I snore. She holds the animals but never me. She takes up for me but never shows love. I bite my tongue, love myself because she does not have the needs that I do. It’s been 3 months. I hurt. I feel like I am on a fast track to Hell because she does not step up. I need her. Life is busy. It never slows down. Only enough to do it all again. I forsake others. I’ve never cheated. I feel lonely.