I have a growing bubble of envy because of comparing myself with family and I hate it. I'm in high school and although I take more difficult classes than the average person, I just can't help feel envious of how easy school and class is for everyone else. Additionally, my friend and family attend elite, ivy league prep/private top of the nation schools and take even more rigorous classes and take about 3 APs even in the ninth grade and I just don't feel like I'm good enough. Even people in my school already have their lives planned out and I don't have a clue what I'm doing so I don't know what classes to take to prepare for (like AP Bio for Med School). The only thing I'm good at is English which is fine at all, but when I see my family do amazing things; coding competitions (cousin my age, around third in the US), first place in a history competition as a seven year old against middle schoolers(against other states), etc. And I'm the loser who doesn't have a future & has a B in math