I really miss my grandparents. They’re not gone or anything, but they’re getting older and genuinely the people i love most apart from my parents and brother (i love them equally) but yeah anyway i only see them twice a year but my parents decided to make it only be in the summer now and i miss them so much my heart actually throbs. I also go to a new school now, the education is good but no one really likes or cares about me. I’ve never had more than 3 friends in my whole life who really do. Idk if im the problem, i act friendly, but at the end of the day i just feel like nothing to them. It’s not like I’m insecure, i know im not ugly, im athletic, top set, but no one really cares about me excelt my family. Also, when i had my birthday, one of my closest relatives passed away, and this whole year i feel like my childhood has ended, i dont wanna die for sure, but i wanna go home, which i cant bc im a minor,my parents would never let me go to my home country to live in the near 5 years