Not being sble to hurt myself is suffocating and uncomfortable. I dont know how to be nice to this girl inside i loved so much and it breaks my heart that i scream at her and berade her of the smallest things creating a flinching scared creature in her place this hate consumes more than myself I want to love her again be kind to her. Im really sorry for treating you like this, after all youve done for me been with me through it all. You deserve to be treated with kindness im sorry im still greiving my cat going missing you are still a good girl so am i im sorry i made mistakes.