I hate myself and I don't like looking in the mirror becaus e of it and I want to be called he /him but my mom is trans phobic asf and school is not going so well in getting f's and all of the above lowk I don't like going to school it's not the work it's the people there why can't I be pretty why can't people like me is if becuz of some thing I did it it because of me and at school my teacher called me out and pulled my into a separate room and said did u put on droderant and said to put on some and this happened two times TWO TIMES I'm really trying to take more showers and stuff but I feel like I cant like I can't I'm tired of people treating me like a punching bag and I feel like people dont care I fell like they use me for entertainment that's what I feel like I cant tell people how I feel or what is going on in my head or else they will have me take a vacation to the grippy sock hotel and I lowk don't want that