all my friends are online, and none of them ever bother to talk to me. none of them bother to be interested in the things i like. all my friendships are entirely one sided and i'm tired of it. recently i've stopped texting anyone first and no one sent me anything. and none of us have busy lifes. it sucks that in my entire life, i have never had someone else who puts actual interest in the relationship. the other day i was talking to a friend, and he says he thinks i don't care about building "connection". i agreed at the time, because it was the first time someone talked to me about that, but after thinking about it, he couldn't be more wrong. he said it's because i don't share things about myself. that one bit is true. and i do dislike doing so. but i remembered the times i tried doing that in the past, including to this friend, and he just didn't gave a shit. so i don't know why he would expect me to do that. anyway, no one even asks things about me. it's always me asking them.