What has been the forefront of my anxiety is that as a male I cant feel my true self without being ridiculed. I enjoy dressing up in womens clothing it makes me feel comfortable and relaxed. I feel more myself when I have on a skirt or a dress. Along with that I also like to from time to time have sexual encounters with other men. There is something that being with a man can do for me that being with a women can't. But to be able to say these things aloud that is a issue. To go out to the store I must make sure I look my part but never feel comfortable. Women can get away with wearing men's clothing but men cant do the same with womens clothes. On top of that if I express my sexual desire for a man then I am wrong and should burn for it. Fuck that, I am so afraid to go out and have everyone judge me without knowing me and besides that if it isnt you that is wearing the clothes or having sex with other men why does it .after to you if I do. You are not me, so let me be happy.