My friend wanted me to move in with her and her husband and I was discussing this with my family and she heard me and assumed that I was talking bad about her and she called me a fake friend. I got a panic attack twice in 2 hours. After that I was talking to the guy basically my ex and I had told him to text me when he had something solid to talk to me about and I got triggered when he joked around. And I cried for two days trying to explain it to him that hey I was begging him to do something. He abandoned me twice cause he didn’t want to come to London and he is not able tot stand up to his family and tell them that he will be moving to London. I wanted to cut the cord but he wouldn’t. I was okay for him to go. But he wouldn’t. He stayed. Now, I was feeling so isolated and alone. My other guy friend who had a crush on me called me up and in my mind I was like no no I want my ex back. I basically felt like I was falling in love with him again. And I was craving for him so much.