Ever since I was very young, I remember even from five years old, saying I’ve wanted to be a boy. I always agreed to what everyone has wanted for me when it came to dressing up apart froma little rebellious moments in my teens. It’s not about just wesring dresses anymore, ocassionally I don’t mind it. Now I feel insecure about my body strentgh, the jobs I want to but never got to do because I’m a girl, and I wish I could be in constructions with dad, everyone wanting my facial and body hair removed and arranging appointments without asking me because I’m supposed to be a feminine girl. I’ve never felt too insecure with periods, I just don’t want to be a typical girl. I want to get top surgery… Maybe it’s not about wanting to be a guy, but wanting to be free in my body. But it makes me feel so wrong because doctors said if I were a boy I probabbly wouldn’t survive early birth. So why risk everything just to be myself? Why shock my parents to death if it’s for something imposssible