I just had a catastrophic meltdown today, and that pretty much confirmed that i'm autistic. I had no control. I could just watch and listen as i threw a ridiculous screaming tantrum. I am 36 years old. I'm happy my husband was the only person around to witness it, but it was still super embarassing. A day of exhausting frustrations should not have me acting like a sleep deprived toddler. But there was nothing i could do about it.