I feel like I’ve wasted my entire life without even starting it yet, in a way. I’m still young, but I’ve got 0 friends I would always tell myself (and still do) that I’m okay with being alone and I don’t need anybody else besides myself. But after a while it gets tiring. I’ve had friends before, but things happened and I stopped attending school, the last friend I did have, I cut contact with because I had so much self hatred for myself because of the person I was and how I looked, I was overweight and had an eating disorder and lost 65 pounds. I had gotten my first boyfriend ever a while after, and long story short he wasn’t a good person and would hurt me physically so I left him and he still bothers me to this day. Every job I’ve had I’ve never connected with anybody and the job I have now I met said last friend again. We reconnected but shortly after he stopped speaking to me because his girlfriend doesn’t want him having any female friends. Now I’ve got nobody again.