My best friend is talking shit about me behind my back. She is trying to get my ex as well when she knows how much I feel for him. I don't even think she wants him, I just think she doesn't want me to have him. He's someone I love and someone I wish that I didn't love, because he is indescribably complicated but also indescribably lovely. I spend too much time thinking about him. I feel like my support system is shattering. I don't know why she's doing this, and I kind of wish I never found out because I don't know where to go from here. And I wish he would be clear with me.