I feel disgusting.I almost killed myself while my mom over here is suffering and paying alot of money for me and my sisters just for one of her kids to probably die from suicide while shes paying 300$ for an art class.I also have an AI addiction and feel guilty for it.I still cant stop.I dont go outside much and I almost killed myself a week or two ago with a knife but stopped myself.I hope everybody gets better.I've also been more emotional crying out of nowhere or over accidents but nothing broke or it wasnt a big mess.I feel like I've done so many mistakes I'm just one myself creating more.(vent about something a bit more old idk:I was sexually groomed online to be a stupid online girlfriend getting cheated on and make kids.I was called slurs and insulted constantly onlined.I was 9.I feel like the biggest disappointment in my house.)