You know why I cling to online situationships and maintain multiple e-kittens? I used to be sexually active throughout my early twenties to the point where I contracted multiple STDS which traumatised me. My Ex got infected too but I gaslit her into thinking it was her fault. Anyways, no matter how hard I crave for physical intimacy I am pretty sure no one would sleep with me anymore. I feel like offing myself really bad. It HURTS. I HATE this!!!