I feel really frustrated and cheated in life. My parents weren’t kind or loving. They hated each other and I was just a burden to them. My mother was really treating me bad - verbally abusing me, physically beating me up, making me eat spoilt food, talking bad about me to neighbours friends and relatives, called me a slut for no reason when I didn’t even know what it meant. I never felt safe or loved ever. So I always had a hope that future would be better, I can create a happy family. But then my dating life was again cruel, I kept choosing the wrong guys again and again, also from very young I had issues with insecurity. So whoever gave me a hope I chose them and ended up in toxic relationships multiple times. Eventually when I found the right guy I started working then started having financial burdens. And it’s been 6 years we are married and my husband hasn’t worked in 5.5 years. Also because of trauma I didn’t make baby earlier. Now I when I want to I can’t because of health issue