Hey trying not to dump everything on y'all just wanted to yap a little since I just yelled at the only person I feel comfortable talking to... I didn't want to be aggressive or mean and yell at them but I didn't want to break down crying during a car ride together I know that it was my fault and I was just arguing to argue with them but that voice in my head keeps telling me to blame them when I know I have a tendency to snap whenever I feel overwhelmed which happens a lot I don't know how to improve myself and hopefully stop doing this since I know my personality is shit but I can't bring myself to get help especially since I know I'll just get put on meds or have to go to another therapist that doesn't help I need someway to stop without getting others involved