I tried to kill myself yesterday.i feel numb & upset. when my mom found out she told me to kill myself, and yelled at me. I felt silenced. drowned. I don't know how to feel about my mom. one hand; shes given me medication, therapy. on the other hand: shes mean. cold and just.. idk. I wish that my mom could just hug me. comfort me, even if its without words. to make me feel better. and. if she did that, then. maybe i'd be a bit happier today. but I'm not. I don't think I've ever been this horrible since January, in which I went to a mental hospital willing and it SUCKED. I wish things were different. but its like as if life hates me and wants me gone. should I kill myself? should I? I told my dad the henious stuff she said to me, and he just said "well, shes tired of your crap." WHAT? SO YOURE JUST GOING TO IGNORE THE FACT THAT YOUR CHILD TRIED KILLING THEMSELF AND FOCUS ON YOUR WIFE'S FEELING? no WONDER WHY BOTH ME AND MY OLDER SIBLING ARE LIKE THIS, MOM! Fuck my life dude.