The assumptions, words put into my mouth, getting told what to think and say, how to act, what I should do, who I should give credit to, what to feel, I do not know where to stand. There is always something bad that lingers no matter how good things can get. Validation? Trust? Honesty? The ability to express emotions normally? What do I want in life is the question I always ask myself. To be successful? To finally be away from family that has broken bonds? A newer version of me who never wants to be the child who suffered emotionally growing up and forcing herself to be mature at an early age? To get away from authoritarian parents? To be rid of emotional manipulation? To be heard and understood? An environment to feel judgment free, to be open minded? What I want is to feel like I matter and not feel like I'm an inconvenience for being the way I am and what I want to do.